How Did I Get Here?

I’m dangling over a bottomless abyss with my fingernails digging deep into a ledge that once was a fearless girl full of confidence & excitement.  How did I get here? I’m the legendary toddler who used my wobbly footing to venture 3 floors & faced a sea of darkness just to get my blanket.  The girl capable of putting a smile on the gloomiest faces all while dancing, laughing and sparring with my brothers. The young woman who avoided all the boys who offered me the world but wanted the one who treated me indifferently… why? & was that my first step towards the abyss I’m dangling over now? & is this ledge I’m hanging onto still real? Or is it just a distant memory of the girl I used to be?